Sunday, July 24, 2011

When days turn into years....

when days turn into years…                         (fiction)

24th July 2011 4.oo.p.m.

“She had kept the cell phone switched off to avoid the temptation of calling him or expecting his call to come. People who knew her were finding it weird to find her fone unreachable but she did not really feel like owing any explanation to them. But being a weekend, a part of her had an intuition he would call. And just when she had switched it on and was going through the missed calls messages in the inbox, his name popped up on the screen. There it was, finally after 3 days of anticipation she would hear his voice again. The last she heard from him was on Thursday night and they had a small conversation but enough to enable her atleast a sound sleep. He was doing fine, motivated and determined to work harder again. Failure does many things to many people. Few are good, most are bad. And in his case, she was not really expecting him to rise up again so soon. But he had and it was evident while talking to him that day.

While saying good bye, all she could think off was when he would call again. And all she can think of now after keeping his call again is ….when would she hear his voice next. There were so many things she had in mind to tell him, to hear from him, but the moment she heard his voice there was a strange silence. Both of them could feel the longing to be with each other, remembering all the endless chats they would have every single day, their wonderful times together.. Everything had come to a halt all of a sudden without they even being ready and prepared for it. Both of them wanted to say how much they loved each other and were missing the other way sooo much than ever before.. 

But even a simple I love you from both of them was enough to encompass all these feelings and thoughts inside us. A girl of so many words and extremely talkative, words were failing her while talking to him a while ago. The irony is, till they did not talk, atleast there was nothing to remember or look forward to, the lack of presence made it a habit each day that this was and is the status quo and the acceptance came gradually. But the moment they spoke again, they transcended into a different world, a world where it was and has always been just she and him. And then the reality started to hit them hard and harder than before, that though they are together, yet not so together right now… and hearing each other’s voice reminded them of this very cruel and harsh reality, that this was a short-lived conversation, that he shall hang up soon whether he wanted to or not, that the more they talked the more they would crave for each other. And before she was able to come to terms with all this, he abruptly said goodbye and kept the phone down. 

He does not want to talk much, does not want to see her, does not want to meet anyone, he wants no gifts at home, and no matter how hard it is for her to do this, to be without him, it just seems the right thing for him. All that matters right now is HIM, and this is the only thing which makes her stronger emotionally each day and helps her fight the craving she feels for him even after knowing him and being with him almost forever… She opens up her laptop, has so many movies to watch, tv shows to begin or resume, but nothing excites her enough as of now. She does watch this movie the adjustment bureau and thinks about him.where the guy David Norris takes the same bus each day for 3 years to find the girl again whose number he lost and was desperate to see her at any cost. She remembers all those years he spent in wooing her even though she never even considered him in with the same emotions and was perhaps busy in her own life with unfortunately some other men. She has still saved all the 1250 messages in her inbox from him past 3-4 years and everytime she reads them again, she just wants to see him hold him and kiss him.

And then in the movie he went against the very plan made for him by the superior powers and such strong was their love and commitment that no one could stop them in the end from reuniting.
And she thinks about him. The struggle to be together has been a highlight of their relationship all along. Sometimes it was the busy schedule, or the lack of means of communication, the distance, the family problems, the list isn’t too small.. But somehow, they managed to go past this all... She knows it has never been easy or a cakewalk for them unlike the other lucky couples she sees who face no problems whatsoever . But, she isn’t envious. She knows that this fight to be together and the longingness only makes their relationship stronger. One doesn’t need to be physically present to be together. They are in each other’s mind and hearts. For how can she stop thinking about him, she breathes him 24/7 and one cant really stop breathing right!!??...."' 

(to be continued..........)

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