Sunday, July 31, 2011

chapter two- the week bygone

31st July 2o11

"One week has passed since the last long conversation they had exact 7 days before today. As she looks at the clock strike 2pm, she cant stop looking at her cellphone to ring and show  his name again. The past one week went by rather uneventful. A little solace came with the fact that this time around, they did manage to have small conversations few  times in the week. At first, it was on monday when he called to tell her he had received the courier she had sent him. The talk lasted precise 2minutes. But they did hear each others' voices. And she was happy he liked the gift too. The next day she got to know from his friend that he had paid him a visit and though not completely fine, yet he was doing ok. He seemed very very hurt and shocked at the fact that this time it should have been him passing with flying colours. But god always has some plan for everyone. This was his extreme step and though in a bad shape, yet only his determination was keeping him going strong. Talking to his friend made her desperate to see him, talk to him. If only it was so easy for her to just give him a surprise. She had been thinking about it for days but she knew that seeing her would make him more nostalgic than happy and relieved. She put the surprise on hold till his birthday which was coming soon. 

But the desperation to talk had not reduced as night descended. She called up his father's number, he was friendly to her but unfortunately he was out of town. She could not call anywhere else as he had strictly told her not to.  The night passed with a lot of restlessness and unending thoughts. 
The next morning while on way to work, she could not resist herself and dialled his mom's number. She picked up and as expected told he was sleeping but she could wake him up too. She did not want to disturb his sleep and kept the phone down. Within 10minutes, the anticipated call came on her cell. 

This time she did not want to waste any minute or second talking anything trivial or random. She told him this was really not working out well. Not talking was not proving to be an ideal solution. That she was sorry to have made that call but she could not resist anymore. Then she became quiet and listened. He said he was affected more than 10 times than her. That whenever he took a break from his hectic schedule, he stopped, closed his eyes and thought only of her.  That he craved so much to speak to her that he had begun having conversations with himself imagining he was doing that with her. She just listened. To anyone else, this would sound an exaggeration, or maddening, unreal, but to them it was love in its most natural and pure form. She felt the same, did the same. He was glad she was supporting him so much in his hardest of times. She thought of that song he had dedicated to her some time back "how you like me now" from the movie the fighter. The more she heard him the more she knew she loved him more each moment of her life. And she knew, though he did not say much but he loved her more than even she  could imagine. 
He reassured her he was doing good, was counting days when they would watch the new twilight movie together very soon. That he was determined to do this for her and his father 'coz he knew it would make them the happiest. It was a fulfilling conversation and they decided to keep it this way for sometime and fight the longing till they can. 
She had to head back to work so they said goodbye. Atleast their thoughts and feelings had poured out and that was a bit of a relief. 

The next 2 days passed bit smoothly.  To her surprise, she got  a call from him thursday evening. It was like telepathy. She was just thinking about what he must have been doing. He told her today was comparatively a lighter day. He had taken a bit of a break, some house work, and then his friends came over to meet him. They talked mostly about football, movies but atleast he got a break and a change from his routine. She was glad his friends were doing the effort which counted a lot. But then she missed meeting him all the more. Patience was one quality very rarely present in this girl but being with him all along had taught her this very thing very well. They then had some random talks, the chit chat silly stuff the usually talk and for a second, it felt like before. And he must have felt it too because he suddenly said goodbye and kept the phone. 

Since then, 3 days have passed. On friday while she was on way home and driving, she did receive a call from him which she missed. But then she called him up immediately and he wanted a work to be done by her. They talked about it and then hung up. Driving alone listening to her favourite songs relaxed her a lot. It was during this time that she thought about him the most, the smallest of events to the most important of days. They had literally spent shared their whole life together and if she begins to recall, there is just no end to what they have been through together, good or bad. 

And she still awaits his call. there are so many things to talk, to share, she doesn't know whether to keep them on hold for later or just forget them and move on. Days seem longer, weeks seem like months. And there is still a good enough time to go until she can see him again without any tensions and worry. But this time, she prays to god everyday to make him successful, to give her share of luck if any to him. 
Is it love or addiction, mere lust or passion, deep honest care or affection.. ??? they do not know..but right now all they know is nothing will or has ever given them more happiness or satisfaction than being in each other's arms.. and they hope this remains forever too...  

Sunday, July 24, 2011

When days turn into years....

when days turn into years…                         (fiction)

24th July 2011 4.oo.p.m.

“She had kept the cell phone switched off to avoid the temptation of calling him or expecting his call to come. People who knew her were finding it weird to find her fone unreachable but she did not really feel like owing any explanation to them. But being a weekend, a part of her had an intuition he would call. And just when she had switched it on and was going through the missed calls messages in the inbox, his name popped up on the screen. There it was, finally after 3 days of anticipation she would hear his voice again. The last she heard from him was on Thursday night and they had a small conversation but enough to enable her atleast a sound sleep. He was doing fine, motivated and determined to work harder again. Failure does many things to many people. Few are good, most are bad. And in his case, she was not really expecting him to rise up again so soon. But he had and it was evident while talking to him that day.

While saying good bye, all she could think off was when he would call again. And all she can think of now after keeping his call again is ….when would she hear his voice next. There were so many things she had in mind to tell him, to hear from him, but the moment she heard his voice there was a strange silence. Both of them could feel the longing to be with each other, remembering all the endless chats they would have every single day, their wonderful times together.. Everything had come to a halt all of a sudden without they even being ready and prepared for it. Both of them wanted to say how much they loved each other and were missing the other way sooo much than ever before.. 

But even a simple I love you from both of them was enough to encompass all these feelings and thoughts inside us. A girl of so many words and extremely talkative, words were failing her while talking to him a while ago. The irony is, till they did not talk, atleast there was nothing to remember or look forward to, the lack of presence made it a habit each day that this was and is the status quo and the acceptance came gradually. But the moment they spoke again, they transcended into a different world, a world where it was and has always been just she and him. And then the reality started to hit them hard and harder than before, that though they are together, yet not so together right now… and hearing each other’s voice reminded them of this very cruel and harsh reality, that this was a short-lived conversation, that he shall hang up soon whether he wanted to or not, that the more they talked the more they would crave for each other. And before she was able to come to terms with all this, he abruptly said goodbye and kept the phone down. 

He does not want to talk much, does not want to see her, does not want to meet anyone, he wants no gifts at home, and no matter how hard it is for her to do this, to be without him, it just seems the right thing for him. All that matters right now is HIM, and this is the only thing which makes her stronger emotionally each day and helps her fight the craving she feels for him even after knowing him and being with him almost forever… She opens up her laptop, has so many movies to watch, tv shows to begin or resume, but nothing excites her enough as of now. She does watch this movie the adjustment bureau and thinks about him.where the guy David Norris takes the same bus each day for 3 years to find the girl again whose number he lost and was desperate to see her at any cost. She remembers all those years he spent in wooing her even though she never even considered him in with the same emotions and was perhaps busy in her own life with unfortunately some other men. She has still saved all the 1250 messages in her inbox from him past 3-4 years and everytime she reads them again, she just wants to see him hold him and kiss him.

And then in the movie he went against the very plan made for him by the superior powers and such strong was their love and commitment that no one could stop them in the end from reuniting.
And she thinks about him. The struggle to be together has been a highlight of their relationship all along. Sometimes it was the busy schedule, or the lack of means of communication, the distance, the family problems, the list isn’t too small.. But somehow, they managed to go past this all... She knows it has never been easy or a cakewalk for them unlike the other lucky couples she sees who face no problems whatsoever . But, she isn’t envious. She knows that this fight to be together and the longingness only makes their relationship stronger. One doesn’t need to be physically present to be together. They are in each other’s mind and hearts. For how can she stop thinking about him, she breathes him 24/7 and one cant really stop breathing right!!??...."' 

(to be continued..........)